Thursday 21 July 2016

The Final Leg


Every journey has an end and this journey with ALS came crashing to an end on July 3.  Despite knowing the end, the final step was still a surprise we were not expecting.  The 4 am phone call from the hospital plays over and over in my head. Although Jim said he prayed nightly to go home to the Lord, somehow it was too soon.  There was no warning that this would be the time.  Jim was being treated for a possible infection in his lungs but thought he'd be out again on Monday and we'd be back at the cottage.  But God had better timing for all of us.
We had rented a cottage for our family in Grand Bend and all the kids and grandkids were there.  No one had to be summoned from far away or from work.  We could cry together and go through all those details as a family.  By 6 am, our kids were with me as we journeyed to the hospital to get closure as we said goodby to Jim's earthly shell.  Then we met with the funeral director, the pastor and a number of friends from church and some siblings.  Phone calls and emails were sent.  
With the details sorted out we were able to spend a few more days altogether at the cottage.  What a blessing that was!  Spending time with grandchildren is the best way to focus on other things. 
The visitation on Friday and the funeral on Saturday were incredibly uplifting as hundreds of people showed their respect for Jim and support for us.  Everyone agreed that Jim would be with the Lord, whether he was dancing or fishing!  I don't know just what heaven will be like, but I am sure that with the Lord, it will be so much better than our temporary existence on this planet. 
The last two weeks have been filled with many things.  Tidying up many details, visiting with my sisters, and chatting with friends and family.  Grief is there but thankfulness dominates! Jim did not have to suffer as long as many ALS patients do.  He no longer has to deal with the frustration of losing so many things we take for granted, like breathing, walking and talking.  Our children have been so supportive.  I am taken well care of financially.  I have friends and family and church to support me.  God is only a prayer away.  This journey ends but life continues.  
To all of you who have journeyed with me, thank you.  Your prayers and support have been felt and appreciated.